Senin, 29 Oktober 2012

So I've learned, the hard way... have u?

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. 
The same goes for true love.

I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon.
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
***

Jumat, 17 Agustus 2012

Let Us Let Go of The Anger

August 17, 2012.


Ramadhan is about to end, and i look at my blogs tagline "waiting on the world to change".

Ashamed...

For i haven't change to be any better this Ramadhan.

I realize in this world,it is so hard to keep positive.
When the rest of the world is trying hard to look good, but never actually be one. 
We all strive to  motivate ourselves by saying nice things, when we actually not sure we're even worthy of saying it.

Do we say it coz we did it?

Do we say it coz we want people to see it?

or do we just wanna hurt somebody Else's feelings by saying it?

I realize i am guilty for all the above.
and i'm not proud of it.
I see myself so weak, very easy to fall of haters words.

Revenge.
Saying exactly the sarcastic thing to strikes back.

I am nothing better than them, i might even be worst.
And i really hate to see myself like this.

Hate is so consuming...
It kills the good in me, and the good in everyone...

I wish i could just say i don't care,
That u could hate me all you like, for as long as u satisfied and it killed u eventually,

But i also wish I could show my winning, and You'll be okay.
Because I do it for me and It makes me happy...
Then U could show your winning, and I'll be okay, too...
Because we simply different and wonderful in our own way.
 
Let's stop judging, 
Let's stop accusing, 
Let's stop being so negative.

Hey...
Don't worry, i still have to learn to work on all that, too.
To be better...

I wish we all too,
Specially you out there...

Let's change this the world....
In this upcoming Holy day, Eid Fitri.

Amiin Ya Rabb...


PS: Happy Independence Day Indonesia

Selasa, 03 Juli 2012

When all i need is you, to appreciate my feelings...

Considering My Options...

Okay...

I'm sure all of u have one thing u really CAN NOT tolerate about someone, right?

Well, in my case, i think i have this difficulty to trust a person. BAH!

In my defense that didn't came without reason,

I just happen to be "lucky" to experienced lots of betrayal in my just 28 years life.

But no matter how many times it happens, i can't barely help the feeling...

The feeling of sick,
The feeling of shame,
The feeling of disappointed,
The feeling of anger,
The feeling of resentment,
The feeling of hurt...

The feeling like you are the stupidest person in the world,
for letting yourself to trust someone, and be weak...

After you build your trust on someone, 

Brick by brick,

After you change your everything, 

Give your best to believe,

To trust someone and gratitude,

and then BOOM!,

Just like that someone crashed it away. 

Like it didn't meant anything...

Then you see yourself back to ground ZERO.

that all you can think of from now on is suspicious. 



I just wish i could forget it... I really do...

Because i don't think you could fix my pain,

Anymore. 

***





P.S: The last thing we need is someone making another lie to cover their other lies

P.S.S: But maybe lying runs in their blood, one would die if one didn't do it.

 
P.S.S.S: U have no idea how many times I type n delete this post ;pp

Minggu, 24 Juni 2012

You Should NOT Believe What I Said

Can't u see?

Everyday passed by,
 
and I feel like I'm losing my mind,

I'm not tired, but i feel so tired

I don't know what i want anymore,

I only know what's important to do, now...


I miss the feeling that u have,

U seems like u had good times on your own,

and I don't have the same patience anymore.



I pray,

I pray for u,

I pray for myself,

I pray for  us...

But i don't know how long i can take it,

It's killing me inside.



Save me,

Hear me,

Here with me...

Don't You Remember?

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more

-Adele-

The Sweetest Smile

I think we should never trust what we see,

Sometimes, The Sweetest Smile Hides The Saddest Story...

Sabtu, 21 April 2012

One Day You Will Understand

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh!" he whispered. 
"Yes, Piglet?" 
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you."

Here is a piece of me that u should know...
That I'm not trying to be saint, I just have a strong wish to be better.
For I realize, how lucky I am.
After all the bad things I did, YOU still showered me with so many blessings.
I've probably seen bad too many times than average girl should see...
and I've been one...
There are times I feel so afraid, that one day YOU will leave me, tired of me, fear of one day YOU will realize that I don't deserve all this, but YOU never did.

and for that I am so grateful, Ya Allah...
and I will always try to do my best for each and everyone I love .

---

My friend,
There are times I did such a mistakes that i don't even wanna remember...
I still try to forget it though I know I can't change my past...
and the only thing i regret was how I wish I have a friend who never tired to remind me when i made one.

Though I might not listen, 
Though I might not see it, 
Though I hate  it,
I know so true,
I was loved.

***

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.” -Winnie The Pooh-