August 17, 2012.
Ramadhan is about to end, and i look at my blogs tagline "waiting on the world to change".
Ashamed...
For i haven't change to be any better this Ramadhan.
I realize in this world,it is so hard to keep positive.
When the rest of the world is trying hard to look good, but never actually be one.
We all strive to motivate ourselves by saying nice things, when we actually not sure we're even worthy of saying it.
Do we say it coz we did it?
Do we say it coz we want people to see it?
or do we just wanna hurt somebody Else's feelings by saying it?
I realize i am guilty for all the above.
and i'm not proud of it.
I see myself so weak, very easy to fall of haters words.
Revenge.
Saying exactly the sarcastic thing to strikes back.
I am nothing better than them, i might even be worst.
And i really hate to see myself like this.
Hate is so consuming...
It kills the good in me, and the good in everyone...
I wish i could just say i don't care,
That u could hate me all you like, for as long as u satisfied and it killed u eventually,
But i also wish I could show my winning, and You'll be okay.
Because I do it for me and It makes me happy...
Then U could show your winning, and I'll be okay, too...
Because we simply different and wonderful in our own way.
Let's stop judging,
Let's stop accusing,
Let's stop being so negative.
Hey...
Don't worry, i still have to learn to work on all that, too.
To be better...
I wish we all too,
Specially you out there...
Let's change this the world....
In this upcoming Holy day, Eid Fitri.
Amiin Ya Rabb...
PS: Happy Independence Day Indonesia
